BREAKING DOWN

"No matter how much we try,

no mater how much we want it....

some stories just don't have a happy ending."

It has never been easy to explain to anyone how your heart sobs down the pillows when you have so much going on your mind...always having a thought that I have hurt someone is tearing me apart...falling for someone always proves to be a source of pain for someone else...falling in love is terrible...it gives you so much more than you could even imagine...

Experiencing butterflies in the stomach by just someone's presence is merely a trap to conclude your grave into infinite sorrows...I've spent hours sobbing under the tap's water...requesting God for his presence...It seems so complicated when you realise that you can no more love the person who loves you so much...and falling for someone else who you know have thousands of knocks at their doors...and your knock will never be listened to but will rather disappear before even coming in contact with the door's wood...not even reaching the person...

Its kind of scary when everything suddenly changes...and what hurts the most is you yourself have killed the innocence, the happiness and finally your love for your own soul...I have started feeling disgusted in myself...for I have ruined a beautiful soul that I knew ...and I now know that will never be able to love someone else.

Sometimes I find hard to understand myself...it feels both a curse and a blessing to feel everything so deeply...it feels like that I'm no more with me ...my life has made the decision to leave me.

I'm not sure if I'm happy or sad. I can laugh and joke and smile all day, but sometimes when I'm alone at night it becomes really suffocating and I just forget how to feel. Maybe that's it...we eventually go numb because you can't break a heart ...that's already broken.

I made the decision to leave the beautiful soul and I chose to leave not because of selfish reasons but I just knew that things will get worse if I'll stay...

Sometimes life is just like snow, beautiful but cold. You can always feel its bliss but you can never ignore its glacial winds.